I feel upbeat sometimes and downlow sometimes. My upbeat says i can make i just need to stick with it. I don't what the it is. No clue as to what I am gonna make it. My downlow wants me to go home, crawl in a bed and be done. Pushing down the downlow and pulling up my upbeat sometimes is a big feat.

You don't see it, but I was there for it and I know it's difficult. How many times will I be doing this.

I am planning a new venture. I am not a venture kind of person. I am not a career person, I am a mom. The kind that lugs kids to and fro and feeds them, organizes play dates and birthday parties and is aware of the sacred very tight parent circle at school PTA 

and has Friendships in there. And why I am thinking of a new venture is beyond me. But here I am.