I cannot go on like this. I have gone through a lot. Like a loooooot. I have suffered through other people's nastiness for a long time. I so far had a very busy life where I brush everything under the carpet and move on. Now it's all catching up to me really that carpet can handle only so much. I have been badly abused. When I ever brought it up, I have been told that I am digging up the past and fighting or that I only think about myself or the kids are what I should.be thinking about and it's no more about me and that I am selfish or that i have had it easy compared to some other daughter in laws. So I put that to rest and I carry on. Now I cannot. Its really catching up with me. I think I can be a better person if I could heal from the trauma of all that abuse. How do I go about it. I have no one whom I could discuss this with or anything.
I want to go far away and live in peace but I want my kids to have a good life too. I don't know how many mothers out there put up with all that shit their in-laws are dishing out just for their kids. All these people will get paid back at payback time. I see them already reaping the benefits of their handiwork. But that's not what is going to heal me. It makes me feel slightly ever so slightly better but does not make me healed even one bit. How do you heal and how to go about it. Some days are better where I can still brush these things off, some are not that good, I feel miserable like all my dreams have been killed at a point called marriage and at all than these sharp tongue animals called in laws have done to me.
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